thursday, february 24th, 2022 [2]
Feb. 24th, 2022 03:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
milkteapuppyybroke my clean streak today...
not sure how to feel about it, to be honest... on the one hand, i talked so much about healing and getting better and now i've fallen back on my old crutch. but at the same time... my scars are so cute, and they were fading. i had to do it. i had to. well, maybe i didnt. but i wanted to. maybe i can still be healthy if i keep this up. maybe it doesnt have to be a display of my illness, maybe i can just do it and have it be unrelated to whatevers wrong with me. i can hope, anyway. id hate to think the scars i love so much will one day need to fade if i want to heal. maybe i'll post pictures eventually...
not sure how to feel about it, to be honest... on the one hand, i talked so much about healing and getting better and now i've fallen back on my old crutch. but at the same time... my scars are so cute, and they were fading. i had to do it. i had to. well, maybe i didnt. but i wanted to. maybe i can still be healthy if i keep this up. maybe it doesnt have to be a display of my illness, maybe i can just do it and have it be unrelated to whatevers wrong with me. i can hope, anyway. id hate to think the scars i love so much will one day need to fade if i want to heal. maybe i'll post pictures eventually...
